"Pause"

The weather changed today so many times that I couldn’t really understand in which season I am.
In my city, in 24hours, people change much more than the weather; incredible but true.
I have reached recently, a certain degree of absence of trust that scares my future initiatives.
Since couple of weeks, I am having kind of weird and repetitive schedules: early wake up, quick moves, running everywhere, thinking that my world will miss a lot if I don’t leave my bed and do something for it. I rarely have time for lunch, to share it with someone.
Then I come back after hard moments with the traffic jump and transportation, enter into a re-integration process under my shower. Then I fix my headache with a cup of tea, and something sweet to get my energy back, already in front of my computer, because this world that doesn’t want me, do expect so many things from me.
And life goes on…
I am human, and just like all humans I have dreams that are trying to stand against the realities of life in an unbalanced society.
In the middle of this nowhere, I am quite happy with myself; my fast learning and my courage may be not to overcome what I have been through but to understand that l still can get better things in life.

I thought betrayal was an end, but I discovered that it was the beginning of everything.
I thought life could be related to people’s presence in our lives but it doesn’t. It just takes the road you give to it since the beginning, and it is just up to us to make it right or wrong at each step we have.
I am not sure to what extend is it true to think that mistakes from which we learn are no longer ones but learning is the best proof of smartness .
I don’t want to have a life of regret and I don’t want to inflict it to anyone and this is one of my biggest strength.
As strength that I sincerely hope will make me wake up every day to have this same schedule to give to my world small things with a big heart.